Monday, October 27, 2008

Jesus vs. Jeezy

I'm saved. Yes, we're talking the churchy kinda saved. The kind where you go up to the altar and feel such a weight lifted cuz you're not going to hell!! Woot! Did I mention this happened about a decade ago? I've wandered in and out of churches since then. Backsliding you could say (and you'd be right). Now here I am, all graduated from college, working the big girl job and getting my adult life together. I avoided church for awhile cuz I'm not really a fan of churchy people. You know them. They will judge you sooo quick your head will spin like on "The Exorcist". I'm a smart girl, and my comprehension rate is above average (not bragging, just saying), so after reading the Bible, I know that's know what Jesus would do. So I figured I could do me over here without the church. But the last 2ish years I've been really wanting a church home. I actually missed church...or at least what I thought church was supposed to be like. Last spring I actually found a church! Yay for the good people there too. But I've still got some habits leftover from my "heathen" times in college. And let's be honest, I'm not in a huge hury to break these habits either. I'm easing back from them, but I can't see myself just going cold turkey. Sometimes I really like to get tipsy and act a fool in a club. And sometimes Jeezy or T.I. just speak to me lol. In fact, sometimes I think Kanye is writing the soundtrack to my life (and no sister, you STILL can't tell me nothin!). So I'm struggling with balance. Sometimes I feel guilty about keeping these habits up. And it's not like drinking a bottle of wine or a 12 pack of beer (I get thirsty...) is more important than my mortal soul. But I like to...so what do I do? Lol, you're right. I'll pray about it.

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